Happy Birthday to my Dad!

Today, I remember my Dad.  As he would’ve turned 85 years old!

Time really heals all wounds.  But I am finding that there will still be times when it hurts really bad because I miss him so much! It hasn’t been a year so it’s still fresh but God’s abundant grace and mercy have been truly my anchor.  Jesus Christ is my rock and my redeemer.  And continues to give me peace and comfort because He is in control.

“In whose hand is the life of every living thing, and the breath of all mankind?” Job 12.10

“The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy.  I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it abundantly.”  John 10.10

I continue to look to Christ as I miss my Dad.  And know He has made everything beautiful in its time.

My Father

I’m speechless.  I was ready to blog about my Dad for Father’s Day.  But all I can say is I miss him.  It’s only been about 5 months since we said goodbye to the most loving, thoughtful, caring, strong, giving, talented, handsome father with the biggest heart  ❤

He will always be alive in my heart ❤

Celebrating you on Father’s Day, Dad!  🙂

65 Years Strong

Today my parents have been married for 65 years.

Though my Dad passed away 3 months ago, their marriage continues to be alive in our hearts. There is not a day I don’t think of my parents as an example of showing unconditional love to each other.

Their marriage was far from perfect yet filled with so much hope and love which they truly exemplified in their lives.

Marriage is a commitment which pictures God’s grace and mercy.  And they believe in that truth and lived it out.  Thankful to have personally witnessed it in their lives.  Because they followed the original design of marriage, they have been blessed above and beyond!  And their children continue to benefit from their blessings as we personally see it being passed down from generation to generation.

Through good times and bad times, in sickness and in health, till death do us part.  My parents truly showed me and my siblings how our marriage vows should be lived out.

So thankful and blessed to have them in our lives.  Happy 65 years together Mom and Dad!  ❤

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Dahil Sa Iyo

My Dad loved to sing.  And I mean he really loooooved to sing!  He would sing to my Mom when he came home from work, he would sing at home, he would sing in the kitchen, in the living room, in our bedrooms, and even outside.  He would even make up a song that didn’t make any sense, but these songs had my dad’s love and warmth written all over them.  And he didn’t care if people would hear and notice him.  He was more concerned that we heard him.

A song I remember that my Dad always sang to my Mom is “Dahil Sa Iyo” translated to English “Because of You.”  A Filipino love song very recognized by most Filipinos.  I still clearly remember growing up that my Dad always cared for my Mom.  One way I remember this is that we would get in so much trouble when we gave my Mom a hard time.  That show “Wait Till Your Father Gets Home” comes to mind  ;-D

And other ways he would show it was by always singing to my Mom, showing affection by hugging her and kissing her, even in front of us!  I remember getting all yucked out about it back then, but loving it so much when I got older.

So, I dedicate this song to my Dad as I know he most likely was ready to sing this song to my Mom this Saturday on Valentine’s Day if he were still alive.  And he would sing it even if it was not Valentine’s Day.  Regardless, we continue to hear him sing this song as we will forever hear and feel it in our hearts.

We love you and miss you so much Dad!  ❤

The Shadow of Your Smile

As I was going about my morning today, I stumbled upon this song and reminded me how much I love it so much!

Tony Bennet reminds me of my Dad. I remember how he often listened to his music and would pretend he was Tony Bennet as he would sing to my Mom. I’m thankful for good memories as my Dad has not been the same since his stroke in Feb 2002. Our entire family had to adjust to the new norm. Having these good memories also helps me remember of who I used to be before getting so sick with Fibromyalgia. As I really lost a sense of who I am.

Talking to long time friends recently brought me back to my darkest days with Fibro and helped me remember how far I’ve come! When I have my quiet moments, He helps me see how my suffering and hardship all these years happened for a reason. His divine reason. Once I stopped denying and fighting this nasty disease, I became more at peace and felt content despite the onslaught of daily pain. The kind of contentment that it’s okay if I don’t heal right away. Or be cured. Once I did this, I became more focused in my journey of healing.

It was then I realized my ULTIMATE healing was not going to come from food, exercise, etc.  It has helped me heal and is continuing to help me heal.  But God is the one who put me on the road to healing.  I was again reminded I am not my own!  And though I lost a sense of who I am, I was pointed back to the reality that my true identity is in Christ alone.

As much as I wanted to take control of my healing, I was reminded God is in control and He will heal me in His time. My creator is my ultimate healer. He is the SOURCE OF EVERYTHING I’ve been able to find to help me heal. And He still continues to provide as I walk this journey.